Riley had some pretty major "firsts" in the past two weeks. She got her first tooth, soon followed by the second. They are in the front on the bottom. It's kind of weird seeing her smile and not be greeted by all gums! The other major first is not something to celebrate really, but still blog-worthy: her first trip to the emergency room. She had group D salmonella poisoning, and it's still a mystery as to how she got it. It started with dirrahea and a fever, and after a trip to her pediatrician she started to vomit. (Which, let me tell ya, I am now very educated in the vomit versus spit up category.) Her fever would not come down, and by the time we got to Arnold Palmer it was at 103.
The worst part of it all was just how miserable she was. The nurses had to hold her down and test her urine with a catheter and she just cried and said "mama!", which just about broke my heart. Thankfully, she is doing nearly 100 percent better, and is back to her old self! She has definitely perfected saying "mama" and has become a little spoiled with all of the extra attention.
This whole experience felt kind of like a rite of passage for motherhood. I used to think it would be so horrible to have to clean up the messes after my kids get sick. Honestly, that did not phase me. It's amazing to see the natural maternal instincts just kick into high gear and do everything humanly possible to bring comfort to Riley. In middle of the night and her fever was so high. It was hard to watch her cry like that and feel her get so hot. In those moments I felt myself turn around to just find that I was alone. I had my parents help, which was amazing, but I can definitely feel the lonliness of being a single mom.
The worst part of it all was just how miserable she was. The nurses had to hold her down and test her urine with a catheter and she just cried and said "mama!", which just about broke my heart. Thankfully, she is doing nearly 100 percent better, and is back to her old self! She has definitely perfected saying "mama" and has become a little spoiled with all of the extra attention.
This whole experience felt kind of like a rite of passage for motherhood. I used to think it would be so horrible to have to clean up the messes after my kids get sick. Honestly, that did not phase me. It's amazing to see the natural maternal instincts just kick into high gear and do everything humanly possible to bring comfort to Riley. In middle of the night and her fever was so high. It was hard to watch her cry like that and feel her get so hot. In those moments I felt myself turn around to just find that I was alone. I had my parents help, which was amazing, but I can definitely feel the lonliness of being a single mom.
God is definitely stretching me beyond my comfort zone and teaching me so much. I'm thankful for these times, good and bad. Each day, I can feel my skin get a little thicker.
this made me cry, erin i love you so much <3
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