It seems that ever since I found out I was pregnant with Riley, in April 2009, that my life has undergone a whirl-wind of change. Maybe change is the theme during this season of my life? As anxious of a person I am, it is truly by God's strength that I am able to stand. Even since April of this year, when I became a single mother there have been so many changes to take place! (Good and bad, but mostly good.) It has become more than just words or thoughts to literally lay everything down at the Lord's feet; it is a lifestyle and a walk I have to choose every single day. If I don't lay down, not only my pride, but my anger and my hurt, it will steal my joy. It took a few times of trying to hold onto these things to figure out that it is just not worth it.
God is teaching me and refining me so that I can be healed and set free. He is showing me more and more that he wants to be my defendor. Sometimes when there are rumors circulating about me it can be hard to resist the temptation to defend and explain myself. Thankfully, God loves me and he knows what he's doing. Walking this out in his ways seems to be the solution I have been searching for. I feel that becoming the whole person I was created to be will help me be a better mom, and to raise my kids the best way I can.
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